i'm way too busy kickin' ass..

i have not having control. i need to control. i need everything and everyone to revolve around me. i'm so delusional that i think everything does, and that i have constant control, and that i am number #1.


but i'm not. and i never have any control.



i like to pretend i do, but i don't. i can't even control my burping, how do i think i can control anything else?



would love to pack up and move away. preferably columbus, montana. for one reason. it was the place i picked with my eyes closed on the map. i could date a cowboy, and pay the bills by churning butter. oh, how wonderful would that be?



so i won't ever have the need to bear the total truth to anyone but me..